Struggling with church

February 7th, 2015 in Church. Tags: , , , ,

Book: Finding Church

About two years ago, this book was published. I reported on it here because I am one of 37 christians who relate some of their experiences of church in the book. (My chapter is copied on this site, at Church and me.)

When I received my copy of the book, I read a number of the chapters, but never finished it and never reviewed it here, and other books became higher on my reading list.

But these summer holidays I went back to it and read every story. It was well worth the read.

Stories to illustrate the theory

There are many books and websites discussing how the church is changing, and must change, to meet the 21st century challenges it faces. Many of them are insightful and helpful.

Finding Church is a useful companion to all this, for it provides 36 stories (plus the editor’s own input) that illustrate the theory and give an insight into how thoughtful and dissident christians are feeling about the church and how they are responding.

The book groups the stories into three types of stories:

Leaving church

People (both “lay” people and pastors) whose negative experiences in the institutional church lead to them dropping out completely. This group is starting to be called the “Dones” for they are done with the denominational church.

Switching church

A second group of christians have chosen to switch churches, sometimes several times, often because they too have had negative experiences of the church, but sometimes just because God seems to have led them that way.

Reforming church

This group’s experiences were often not positive, but they chose to stay within the church they were part of and try to play their part in making positive changes.

Common problems

It is sobering, and sometimes harrowing, to hear how some christians have been mistreated and misunderstood. Of course we only hear one side of each story here, but it seems pretty clear that there is a lot here for churches to repent of.

Mistreatment and lack of love

We read of church members who are mistreated, even abused by the senior pastor and staff – full-on sexual or physical abuse in a few cases, but more often unloving actions that sometimes could be considered to be emotional or spiritual “abuse”.

  • unloving, insensitive and generally unnecessary church discipline, sometimes including public slander, and seemingly oftn the result of unnecessary exercise of power and control;
  • accusations of heresy because people dared question some church teachings which were hardly essential, or questioned the divisiveness of denominationalism;
  • senior pastors telling people they were suffering because they had done something that caused God to withhold his blessing;
  • members who saw their church’s expenditure on buildings and facilities, and not on mission, as not being truly following Jesus;
  • legalism (law instead of grace) and the placing of church traditions above people and the mission of the church;
  • churches that seemed like impersonal clubs with no sense of community;
  • churches that didn’t help, or even seem to care for, members in need;
  • churches that were so concerned about their own comfort and tidiness that they turned off neighbours.

Many of these problems are summed up in Tyson Phillips’ Nevertheless, his letter to the institutional church that he has abandoned, modelled on Jesus’ letters to the churches in the book of Revelation.

Pastors struggle too

We also read of pastors who couldn’t live up to their congregation’s or denomination’s expectations. These were often pastors who wanted to explore new areas of mission and were prevented in this by congregations who (as the pastors see it) merely wanted the pastor to earn his pay by giving them what they wanted, which sometimes meant going back to the golden days of the 1950s.

In one case, a pastor began a church plant to start again without all the baggage and traditionalism, and was horrified to find within a short time they had fallen into many of the traps they thought they had left behind.

So what did they do next?

Some of those who left found it a great relief to get off the treadmill (one author describes his frantic church involvement as like being on a drug). Many of these found fellowship in meeting more informally with christian friends, something like what Pete Ward calls liquid church, and/or began to serve in the community in ways which they felt were more true to the calling of Jesus than sitting in a pew every Sunday.

For some of those who switched, it took several years to overcome the hurts of leaving a church before they were able to join another. Others needed time to sort themselves out, finding that they had attitudes that made settling in any church more difficult. Some didn’t just change congregation, but changed denominations

Some took on new responsibilities in the church they were dissatisfied with, and God used this to re-kindle their love for their brothers and sisters. Some decided to stay with the hope things would change. Some used their disappointment with the church as a prompt to do more in their community or church. One church found that when they began to value and practice unity and love within the body, God blessed them with growth. Some pastors were able to lead their churches into new directions and ministries.

Take home messages

It is pretty hard to generalise across all these diverse stories, but my thoughts were:

  1. The institutional church in the US definitely has a problem (it is hard to say whether this extends elsewhere because most of these stories are from the US). Many churches appear to have become too comfortable in material ease and a surrounding culture that has allowed many of them to develop patronising, judgmental and unloving attitudes. But the world around us all is changing. Fortunately some churches and many christians are changing, adapting and growing.
  2. Leadership is a particular issue. Protestants pay lip service to the doctrine of the priesthood of all believers, but in reality many churches tend to operate on a “presidential” model where the senior pastor exercises power and control, and lay people are expected to follow, attend, give and listen, only do what they are told and not ask questions. A caricature? Perhaps, but terrifyingly true in some cases.
  3. The watching world, and some church members, don’t see the church “walking the talk” and truly following Jesus.
  4. Many church members, even some of those whose stories are in this book, seem to be thinking more of their own comfort and needs than the mission Jesus has entrusted to us.
  5. Unless the church (in general) changes, in the words of Johnny Utah in Point Break (does anyone remember that movie?): “It’s gotta go down! It’s gotta be that way!”

Check it out

You can get the book on Amazon.

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  1. This sounds very familiar.. I left the church for most of the reasons mentioned above… It was legalism, hypocrisy, and lack of support for some needy members that caused my disillusionment with church . But it also helped me to question some of the basic teachings of today’s church with less fear of condemnation … Basic teachings like the existence of hell , salvation through faith alone, the holy trinity, the Bible as the word of God, and the second coming of Jesus have been more and more absurd the more I study them through rational lenses. I don’t question the existence of a higher being, but the “god” that today’s churches try to indoctrinate in our brains I cannot accept any longer .

  2. Hi Noel. I’m sorry you’ve had those unfortunate experiences. I’ve seen many of those things too, but they generally haven’t been close to me.
    I too have questioned many doctrines, including most of the ones you mention, but I suspect I have come to slightly different conclusions to you on some of them. I don’t feel the normal church teachings about God are as mistaken as you apparently do, but I don’t always agree with them either. I guess we are on the same page on many matters, but not all.
    Thanks for visiting my blog – I’m always happy to see your viewpoint expressed.

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